On my knees staring at the dirt underneath my fingernails
Bleeding so many places I keep losing my count
My ears have a heart beat and
The air in my lungs creeping out of me so fast no chance for stable breath
Life around me turning, moving, mobilizing
and my eyes hanging onto it all
Maybe somehow, someway crawling along, bleeding along
with my crys and wails and tantrums
I will catch savory drops of hope in a pain
Capture waves of loving light in my darkened darkness
and with that scavenge enough courage
for my continuance
To breathe out the lies my demons convincingly whisper to me
To mobilize myself with bravery and courage
To achingly get up time after pain stricken time,
for my soul to stand
with my heart maintaining its soft gentleness,
not closing itself up,
for the world shall not make me hard
My bravery constantly reborn
and so my continuance certain
On my feet staring at the sky,
bleeding so many places I won't continue to count,
Oh, my heart and its beautiful beat,
and the air in my lungs, the air in my lungs
the breath in my lungs,
life around me moving, creating, beaming
and my eyes glowing with it all
Maybe somehow, someway
I will joyously live with savory drops of hope
and waves of loving light
I will mobilize myself with courage
and continue so even with crippling fear
My bravery constantly reborn
and so my continuance is certain
I am brave enough.
